There’s not a lot of people at work because tomorrow’s a holiday, but there’s a lot of work on my plate that I chose to go to the office to get them done. I like working at the office when there’s not too many people – you sit down in front of your computer and the time just passes by without you noticing it. So yes, productive day, but still a lot more things to do for the week. August has been a bit of a struggle because I’m doing two roles at the same time. It’s not easy because I also have a lot of things I need to learn, and a lot of things I need to transition – but work does not pause in the background. That’s how transitions are, but personally, I like change. I like being able to move on to other things and learning and trying new things. So yes, I’m not complaining!

Anyhow, the day went by peacefully at work. Had dinner with Ivan, went home, and then had a second dinner of Unli-samgyeopsal with Ralph and Jingkay. Since it’s Jingkay’s last evening before going back to the US, and tomorrow is a holiday anyway, I said yes, even though my stomach and body didn’t want the extra calories. To my surprise, I still ate more than I should have – the samgyeopsal was really good. 🙁

Over second dinner, we talked about Jingkay’s hostel in Siargao – the struggles and conflicts she went through in chasing after her dream, and the feeling of seeing it becoming a reality in front of your eyes. I want that. I haven’t been chasing after any dream with full passion in the longest time. I miss that feeling of finding meaning in the work you’re doing. Until now, at age 33 (there I said it), I suprisingly still don’t know what my goal is in this life. Maybe I need to do some soul-searching to figure it out. Maybe it will come to me at the most unexpected moment. But I’m getting anxious about my future. What do I really want to achieve? What am I willing to sacrifice for my dreams?

So many questions, still. I hope to sort this out personally in the near future.